"I Do Talk To You"

I know you can’t hear me....but I do talk to you.

And I hear everything you say to me too.

I hear when you laugh, when I do something funny.

I hear you yell "Hooray" when I try so hard.

I hear you tell others how you’d never trade me for the world even with all the trials I came with.

I hear you thank God for what a blessing you have been given.

I hear you encourage me when I can almost do it.

I hear you cry, too, when it gets a little harder

And when you ask God "Why?!" your baby.

And I know you know I understand somehow.

And you know I listen when you talk to me too.

But, I want you to know, mom...........

I do talk to you.

jms 11/13/98

Don’t look at me with pity.

Don’t look with disgust.

Don’t think I am contagious.

Don’t look at my parents like they are to blame.

Don’t think my mom drank or took drugs.

Don’t think my dad hit her while I was in her tummy.

Don’t complain because your feet hurt from being on them all day...

I may never know that hurt.

Don’t moan because you are tired of walking all over your office.....

I may never get that chance.

Don’t get tired of talking on the phone

I may never get to speak.

Don’t get mad when your child is getting into everything when they start walking.....

My parents will cry for joy.

Don’t shush your child when they are talking too much.....

My mother will cry tears of happiness for that.

Don’t scold your child for kissing you too much when you are busy.....

My dad will hug me tight for that.

My parents will believe all of this is a true miracle.

I am not dead.

I am not dumb.

I am not nothing.

I feel.

I hurt.

I THINK.

I LOVE.

I am in this body!

I have rights!

Don’t pass me by & hang your head in sorrow....

Talk to me.

Touch me.

Love me.

But please.......Don’t

Jessica Soukup, 10/23/98

For my Keaton & all the other special Angels in this world.....the physically & mentally disABLED, all ages & gendersI love your poem sight so much! My younger son Keaton is a special needs child & I write a lot of poetry to deal with the things that get thrown at us. He is very sick much of the time. Here is his web page I made, I hope you can check it out.
Keaton’s Page of Hope & Love

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